Sunday, October 22, 2017

It's Like This

Very narrowly focused post tonight, you guys.

Question for Drunkards who are divorced parents.



When are you free of your ex?

When do their mistakes and weaknesses stop affecting you directly?

When do you get to be a competent parent without having to compensate for their incompetence?

When do you ever stop feeling like a failure because you're only one person?

I guess the answer is...never?

I guess the answer is, you do whatever you have to do to make sure your child's college applications aren't incomplete because her dad is an irresponsible man-child.

And you sob because you can't do or be everything she needs.

And you worry yourself almost to the point of death that your best efforts aren't going to be enough.

Precocious Daughter desperately wants to attend Columbia University.

I don't know if she will be accepted. She is doing everything she can to get in.

I'm doing everything I can to help her.

Her father didn't bother to make a copy of his 2016 tax return, which must be submitted to be considered for financial aid.


I've spent most of tonight in tears over this.

Oh, and also  Drummer Boy has no interest in me sexually.

Yeah, my life sucks.


Monday, October 16, 2017

A Few Days in the Life

Allow me to present Precocious Daughter's schedule from the last few days (keeping in mind that much of this is also my schedule):


Band practice 7:00 a.m.
School day
Karate 4:15-5:30 p.m.
Wind ensemble rehearsal (including drive time) 6:30-10:30 p.m.


Band practice 7:00 a.m.
School day
Football game (including prep and travel) 3:30-11:00 p.m.


Marching competition (including rehearsal and travel) 7:00 a.m.- 5:30 p.m.
Fill out college financial aid forms 7:00-8:00 p.m.


Wind ensemble concert (including travel time) 1:00-4:15 p.m.
Impromptu trip to Six Flags with friend (because why not?) 5:00-10:00 p.m.


Band practice 7:00 a.m.
School day
Time with her dad 4:00-?


Band practice 7:00 a.m.
School day
Marching band UIL competition (including prep and travel) 3:30-10:00 p.m.

As you can see, she actually got a good night's sleep Saturday into Sunday. Other than that, it's been up at 5:30 a.m. and asleep no earlier than 11:00 p.m. the whole damn time. And she just keeps going. My child is the damn Energizer bunny.

She never, ever stops smiling.

Oh, and at her wind ensemble concert yesterday, she signed her first autograph for a little boy who shyly handed her his program. It was adorable.

My kid is a rock star.

Me, I'm tired just writing about her.